OH BOY FURTHER EXPLORATION OF SAM'S RELATIONSHIP WITH PAIN I AM HERE FOR THIS.
Yes, exactly, Sam's need for pain is entirely constructed around who he can and who he can't trust with it. Pain has been inflicted on him from so many deceptive, malicious sources and I imagine that--in the absence of Dean (or before the subject could really be broached between them, or when Sam couldn't fully trust Dean)--Sam gave himself the pain because who else could he trust with that?
I think that is also part of what drives Dean's subliminal conflict here: would Sam go too far on himself if Dean wasn't there to control the situation? (Dean and his control issues are a whole other can of worms, but there is absolutely overlap between those themes.)
I could go on and on about this (...and if that's something you'd be about, feel free to let me know) so before I get carried away let me just say thank you SO MUCH for your thoughtful comments! I'm so glad that this piece made an impact on you. ❤
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Date: 2017-04-19 09:24 pm (UTC)Yes, exactly, Sam's need for pain is entirely constructed around who he can and who he can't trust with it. Pain has been inflicted on him from so many deceptive, malicious sources and I imagine that--in the absence of Dean (or before the subject could really be broached between them, or when Sam couldn't fully trust Dean)--Sam gave himself the pain because who else could he trust with that?
I think that is also part of what drives Dean's subliminal conflict here: would Sam go too far on himself if Dean wasn't there to control the situation? (Dean and his control issues are a whole other can of worms, but there is absolutely overlap between those themes.)
I could go on and on about this (...and if that's something you'd be about, feel free to let me know) so before I get carried away let me just say thank you SO MUCH for your thoughtful comments! I'm so glad that this piece made an impact on you. ❤