Bilocation by [livejournal.com profile] inalasahl for <user site="livejournal.com" user="

Jun. 13th, 2012 09:25 pm
[identity profile] springflingmod.livejournal.com posting in [community profile] spn_springfling
Title: Bilocation
Pairing: Sam/Dean
Rating: PG
Any warnings: None

Written by [livejournal.com profile] inalasahl for [livejournal.com profile] xpnkitty!



Dean takes in the room around them. It's Bobby's house, his things, but the walls are white, trimmed in gray. Dean thinks he's seen them before.

Sam's sitting in Bobby's chair holding Dr. Sexy's boots in his hand.

"What's the last thing you remember?" Sam asks.

"The field. And then I woke up." Dean frowns. "No, that's wrong."

But Sam looks excited. "Okay. And then?"

"I woke up in the panic room," Dean replies without thinking. No, that's … that's really wrong, and he's not at all surprised when some of the books explode in a shower of paper.

Sam doesn't even flinch. "Don't get upset. I'm just trying to get you to remember, Dean. That it's possible to wake up."

The window is a round-corned curtain-less rectangle. Outside the window, there is a forest. There is something moving in the trees. "Come back," Sam says. He puts his hand on Dean's shoulder.

"Did you see that?" Dean asks.

"Don't look at them. Look at me. Dean!" Dean leans in then, kisses him, slow and sweet. A test. Sam, the real Sam, would never allow this, would never. But Sam kisses him back, a little rough, a little desperate. His mouth tastes of — nothing. His mouth tastes of nothing, because Dean has never kissed his brother before. Dean pulls away and looks out the window. "You have to stay focused," Sam begs.

"This isn't real," Dean replies.




Sam opens his eyes. "You're back again," Castiel says. Sam looks over at Dean, lying on the floor. Still no change.

"I made a mistake," Sam says.

This isn't Dean dead. Sam has seen that. But this is ... a rawhead and Dean saying "it's a dangerous gig." This is Sam, looking for a miracle. At least Dean's asleep, comatose. If Sam had to look at something that looked like his brother, but sounded like his memories of being soulless, he wouldn't be able to stand it. If it goes on much longer, they'll have to move him. Get him on an IV. Hide from everyone wondering where Dick Roman had disappeared to. But Charlie, the fastest researcher Sam's ever encountered, said contact had to be from the place the soul passed through. It has to be here, but they're running out of time.

He grabs Castiel by the lapels, even though the angel doesn't move an inch. "Why couldn't you bring all of him with you?"

"I don't know. I'm sorry." It's not Castiel's fault that God brought him back again.

He lets go and tries to remember they're lucky. Cas had hung onto Dean, brought his body back with him. Unlike hell, purgatory wasn't designed as a prison for human souls. Without his body they wouldn't even have this chance, nor communication, such as it is. "It wasn't your fault. You tried."

"Thank you, Sam."

Sam knows now what angels are, that they don't have all the answers. But he asks anyway. "Why?"

"A test? A lesson? A clue? I don't know. There must be something he wants you to do someday." Castiel flutters out empty-handed and in with a sandwich. He hands it to Sam with a crooked smile. "That's what everyone says, after all," Cas says. "God has a plan."

Sam tugs the sleeves of his jacket down over his wrists against the chill. He sits down next to Dean. "Send me again," he says.

"Regular rest intervals —"

"Again, Castiel."




Bobby's salvage yard is dark and menacing.

"You give yourself over wholly to the service of God and his angels?" Sam asks.

"Yeah, exactly."

"Say it." The expression on Sam's face is wrong. Terrifyingly intent, but blank at the same time. It's not a Sam look at all. Sam's expression changes, goes soft. "Do you understand, Dean? Words have more power than you know."

Something is moving toward them. Dean watches as the cars begin to move, shoved aside by a dark shape he can't make out.

"Dean, please, we're running out of time." Sam is holding another pair of shoes.

"Those are ballet slippers," Dean says. "Cursed ballet slippers."

"They're shoes you think of as magic that you wanted to wear. I'm working with what I have." Sam bites his lip, looks over at the distant cars crashing into one another. "Put the shoes on and say something, Dean. Please."

If it means that much to him … Dean puts on the slippers and clicks his heels together. "There's no place like Sam," he says.




"Dean! You're awake."

Dean sits up, taking in the Sucrocorp lab around him. It's like waking up from a dream. Everything makes sense now, in a way it didn't before. The walls are white, trimmed in gray. The windows into the other rooms are round-cornered curtain-less rectangles. "Sam?"

"Do you remember what happened?" Dean looks at Sam, and his brother looks the same as always. But Dean is thinking of that kiss. He touches his mouth. Sam looks away.

"I'm sorry about that. I didn't know my mind would affect you like that."

"You mean, you —"

When Sam turns back, he's hesitant, but honest. "You're it for me, Dean. You know that. You said it yourself. Brick one, the foundation everything else is built on." He stands up, and his voice is a little pleading. "Just forget it, okay?"

Dean stands up, too, and puts his arm around Sam. "No. No, I don't think I will."

He pulls his brother to him, testing, and Sam comes willingly as their lips touch. Sam's mouth tastes of toothpaste and ham, because this is real. "I can get some fresh goat's milk if you'd like to celebrate," Castiel says. Dean's mind could never conjure that.

Sam pulls away. "Crowley's got Kevin."

"We'll get him back." He squeezes Sam's hand once, because he can. Sam is a smart man, he thinks. Words do have power. "You didn't get killed," he says.

Sam smiles back, smirking just a bit. "Neither did you."

Date: 2012-06-14 01:50 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] marciaelena.livejournal.com
Oh, I loved this. Loved your take on how Sam gets Dean back from Purgatory. Loved this: "There's no place like Sam,"

And I wish we'd seen that exchange about them not getting killed in the aired episode.

Date: 2012-06-23 06:32 pm (UTC)
inalasahl: (jackles)
From: [personal profile] inalasahl
Thank you! I'm glad you liked it.

It really is too bad they didn't put that in the aired ep.

Date: 2012-06-14 03:27 am (UTC)
auroramama: (Default)
From: [personal profile] auroramama
Wonderful.

Date: 2012-06-23 06:32 pm (UTC)
inalasahl: (jackles)
From: [personal profile] inalasahl
Thanks!

Date: 2012-06-14 03:41 am (UTC)
chemm80: (Default)
From: [personal profile] chemm80
Oh, lovely! Very imaginative...I enjoyed it.

Date: 2012-06-23 06:33 pm (UTC)
inalasahl: (jackles)
From: [personal profile] inalasahl
Thank you so much!

Date: 2012-06-14 05:50 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] bellevue.livejournal.com
Interesting take on the Purgatory situation! I loved the dreamwalking and the repressed feelings that brought out. Also, Sam's comparison to the roboSam situation--to see that happen to Dean would probably be one of his worst fears.

Nice job!

Date: 2012-06-23 07:25 pm (UTC)
inalasahl: (jackles)
From: [personal profile] inalasahl
Thank you! I'm glad you mentioned the part about the robo situation. I agree that Sam would have a very difficult time with something like that happening to Dean.

Date: 2012-06-14 10:25 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] kalymnos.livejournal.com
I like the style of writing here, sparse and pointed. It evokes something of the barren environment in purgatory. I also thought the concept was very clever - combining dreamwalking with the ballet shoes to get Dean home. Very well done.

Date: 2012-06-23 07:25 pm (UTC)
inalasahl: (jackles)
From: [personal profile] inalasahl
Oh, thank you so much. That's a lovely compliment.

Date: 2012-06-14 10:47 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] cassiopeia7.livejournal.com
"There's no place like Sam." &hearts&hearts&hearts

Brilliant. Sam's increasing fear and desperation, Dean's seeming disconnect, the undefined threat growing ever closer . . . wow. This is one of the best "escaping Purgatory" fics I've read. Great job!

*wouldn't mind if Show went in this direction*

Date: 2012-06-23 07:26 pm (UTC)
inalasahl: (jackles)
From: [personal profile] inalasahl
Wow, thank you. That's really high praise.

Date: 2012-06-14 04:44 pm (UTC)
kalliel: (Default)
From: [personal profile] kalliel
This was twisty and kind of scary but also incredibly sweet, somehow. So fitting for SPN. I enjoyed reading this a lot!

Date: 2012-06-23 07:26 pm (UTC)
inalasahl: (jackles)
From: [personal profile] inalasahl
I'm so glad you liked it. Thanks for the comment!

Date: 2012-06-14 05:02 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] akintay.livejournal.com
The last few lines are AWESOME! Great fic <3

Date: 2012-06-23 07:29 pm (UTC)
inalasahl: (jackles)
From: [personal profile] inalasahl
Thank you so much!

Date: 2012-06-17 03:18 pm (UTC)
ext_184176: (dean)
From: [identity profile] downjune.livejournal.com
I really liked the dreamy quality of this! And "There's no place like Sam" :D

Date: 2012-06-23 07:30 pm (UTC)
inalasahl: (jackles)
From: [personal profile] inalasahl
Aw, thank you so much!

Date: 2012-06-18 12:06 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] katiki7.livejournal.com
So much perfection, especially "There's no place like Sam."

And "You didn't get killed." "Neither did you." (I so wish they hadn't cut that out, but with the power of fanon we put it back in again!)

And Cas with his solidarity sandwiches. :)

Date: 2012-06-23 07:32 pm (UTC)
inalasahl: (jackles)
From: [personal profile] inalasahl
Thank you! I also wish they hadn't cut that part.

I have to admit that I get a kick out of Castiel's newfound interest in organic/artisanal food choices.

Date: 2012-06-18 01:39 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] rivkat.livejournal.com
I really liked Dean's dreams, and Sam's intrusions into them!

Date: 2012-06-23 07:33 pm (UTC)
inalasahl: (jackles)
From: [personal profile] inalasahl
Thanks! I'm glad you liked it!
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