A Stargazer Am I by [livejournal.com profile] stellamira for <user site="livejournal.com"

Mar. 17th, 2015 01:47 pm
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Title: A Stargazer Am I
Pairing: Jared/Jensen
Rating: PG-13

When Jensen is eight, his family and the Padaleckis go on a camping trip together. Their dads build a fire once it gets dark, and all the children except for Megan stuff themselves with s’mores and hot chocolate.

Away from the fire, the night is dark, a million bright dots in the cloudless sky. Jared's only four, so he might be more excited about being allowed to stay up after nightfall, but he still listens to Jensen tell him all he knows about the stars, planets, and constellations.

+++

When Jensen is thirteen, he gets to go to a science-centered summer camp. Jared starts crying when Jensen gets into the car beside his mom because he wants to come, too.

It's just as awesome as Jensen thought it would be; he likes making friends who share the same interests – even though none of them possess the kind of childlike fascination that Jared does.

He comes back with his skin covered in freckles and a model of the solar system. Jared quickly forgives Jensen for leaving without him when they hang it from the ceiling in his room.

+++

When Jensen is fourteen, Jared's grandfather gives him a telescope for his birthday. They spend hours nearly every night watching the moon going through its phases and tracking the path of the lager planets across the sky. Until the phone rings downstairs and Jared's mom says if Jensen doesn't come home right now, he'll be grounded for a week.

A full week without looking through the telescope sounds too hard to bear, so Jensen grabs his sky charts and runs over to his house.

+++

When Jensen is seventeen, he only needs to wait a moment after the sound of the ladder being pushed against the side of the house for Jared's head to appear in the window frame. Jared's hit a growth spurt lately, shooting up an inch a day, it seems. He hasn't gotten used to his longer limbs yet, so he crashes more than climbs over the window sill.

"Hi," he says sheepishly from the floor where he landed in a heap as Jensen glances up from his book, peering over the edge of the bed.

"Hey. What are you doing here?"

"Dude." Jared frowns. "Perseids."

"Dude," Jensen mimics him. "The sun's not even down yet."

Jared's picking at his shoelaces. "I know. But I was so jittery during dinner that mom said I should go before I caused an earthquake."

Jensen puts down his book. "Dinner, huh? If you're all full, I guess we don't need to take the pie mom made for us." He laughs at Jared's indignant face.

When it gets dark Jensen drives them a couple of miles out of the city where they lie side by side in the truck's bed, stomachs content and full of pie and Mountain Dew, counting shooting stars.

+++

When Jensen is twenty he's home for Thanksgiving, spending most of the time he isn't with his family studying up in his room, Jared's commentary a nice background to the text he's reading.

"Did you know they're gonna send people up to actually live on the new space station soon?" Jared's lying on Jensen's bed, holding a copy of Sky &Telescope over his head. "Maybe next summer."

"Sure." Jensen turns a page in The Physics of the Interstellar Medium.

"Can you imagine that? Being all those miles up there? I think it'd be awesome, like looking in from the outside." Jared's always been more interested in the technical things, the NASA missions and moon explorations. Jensen wouldn't be surprised if he grew up to be an astronaut one day.

“I’m rather on the inside looking out, honestly. Besides, who’s gonna keep your sorry ass company if I’m on a space mission for six months?”

"True." Jared's trying to balance the magazine on one finger. "I think I might be gay."

It's so out of the blue that Jensen can only blink at first. "Huh?"

"Yeah." Jared's voice doesn't waiver – although he doesn’t look at Jensen, either. "I slept with Sandy and it was pretty bad."

Jensen caps his highlighter. "Jared, having awkward sex doesn't necessarily mean that you're gay – just that you're a teenager."

Jared turns his head then, a faint blush tingeing his cheeks. "How did you know?"

Jensen shrugs. "I fucked a guy."

"Oh. Uh. I don't know if I'm up for that." Jared pauses, then turns even redder. "I mean, I'm up, obviously. It's up. Just not for – No problems in that department. Just – Shut up, you ass." He throws the magazine at Jensen, who's doubled over in his chair, laughing.

+++

When Jensen is twenty-three, he hasn't seen Jared for almost half a year. The age gap between them had never been a problem until Jensen went to college and Jared was still stuck in high school. As Jensen started his graduate program, Jared moved to his own college all the way across the country, and it sucks.

Their schedules don't align, neither of them has the money to come see each other, phone bills get too high too soon so they try to make do with emailing several times a week. Every time Jensen drives out to the Palomar Observatory, he misses Jared, thinks about how they would watch the stars together in their backyards.

+++

When Jensen is twenty-six, he opens the door of the apartment he shares with Danneel and Aldis, two of the other graduate students, to find Jared outside with a backpack over his shoulder, looking like he hasn't slept in days.

"Well," he says after Jensen's gaped at him like a fish for an eternity, taking him in. "Are you going to invite me in, Dr. Ackles?"

"I'm not a doctor yet," Jensen says, running on autopilot because Jared is here, four days after his graduation. "How did you –"

"They invented this great thing called an automobile. Maybe you've seen one, they're these big carriages without horses."

"Shut up." Jensen punches him in the chest. Jared's grown taller than Jensen and he's built, muscles shifting under Jensen's touch. His hair's grown, too, curling out from under a white beanie.

Finally letting Jared in, Jensen promptly stumbles over a pair of shoes someone's left in the middle of the hallway, but Jared steadies him with a firm hand on his waist. Suddenly he's close, so close, and when he says – whispers, really, "I'm starting grad school here in the fall, you happen to have some space for me somewhere," Jensen's heart skips a beat.

"I've missed you so much," Jared says, and Jensen turns around.

Their first kiss happens right there against the wall, soft and slow, speaking of years of their friendship and the yearning while they were apart. The hand Jared keeps on the back of Jensen's head guides him into the best angle for their tongues to slide together, and that's far hotter than Jensen would have thought.

Later, when Jared's sleeping next to him with his arm slung over Jensen's chest, Jensen thinks how he'll show Jared around the campus tomorrow, take him to the observatory when they find time, and drive him out of the city in August to see the Perseids, lying side by side in the bed of his truck like they used to.

+++

When Jensen is twenty-eight, he's got a shiny new PhD in astronomy and a shiny new engagement ring on his finger. It's crafted from a piece of genuine meteorite, lined with gold. It wasn’t cheap to buy a matching pair but it was worth every penny when Jared saw it.

They come home from a department barbecue on a hot July afternoon where Jensen, naturally, got terribly sunburned while Jared just got a shade darker, if at all.

Jared rubs aloe onto his shoulders like a good fiancé then traces random patterns on his skin with a careful finger. "You know, I've always liked your freckles."

Jensen hums in question, too relaxed to form actual words.

"Yeah. They're like little constellations on your skin." He kisses Jensen's shoulder, then lifts the back of Jensen's boxers. "Oh, look, there's Ursa Major right there on your ass."

Jensen tries to hit him, but Jared catches his arm and presses a kiss to his palm as well. Then he pulls Jensen's underwear off completely and proceeds to make him see stars.


The End.

Date: 2015-03-17 09:02 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] alexisjane.livejournal.com
Oh, Jebus...this is beautiful ♥ Really, just so lovely xx

Date: 2015-04-03 04:52 pm (UTC)
stellamira: (Supernatural - J2 is canon)
From: [personal profile] stellamira
Thank you! I'm very happy that you liked it.

Date: 2015-03-17 09:03 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] keep-waking-up.livejournal.com
Lol-ing at Jared finding constellations on Jensen's ass. It was a funny and sweet way to end this lovely little story. I really liked seeing the boys age and the longevity of their connection through astronomy. This was really warm and fuzzy feeling and I love it.

Date: 2015-04-03 04:56 pm (UTC)
stellamira: (Supernatural - Jared puppy look)
From: [personal profile] stellamira
That's Jared for you - can't take anything seriously. :) I like warm and fuzzy feelings when reading stories, too, so I'm happy that you felt that way.

Date: 2015-03-17 09:21 pm (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] beelikej.livejournal.com
Aaahw, these two. This was so very sweet and cute. Loved all the jumps in time and every moment was adorable.

Date: 2015-04-03 04:59 pm (UTC)
stellamira: (Supernatural - Jared hand porn)
From: [personal profile] stellamira
Thank you! You could say that all the jumps happen because I don't know how to connect the different scenes. :D But I'm glad they work.

Date: 2015-03-17 10:10 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] amberdreams.livejournal.com
Oh this is so romantic and lovely, it brought a tear to my eye. Damn, I think I'm going to read it again right now.

Date: 2015-03-17 10:15 pm (UTC)
sillie: (BigBang2010AmriaDean)
From: [personal profile] sillie
Omg! \o/

I love this. No, no, I adore this. I'm in awe how you took my little prompt and crafted it into this wonderful little story. <3<3

Love the little looks into their lives as they're getting older, and how their relationship slowly grows. Thank you so much!

*draws hearts all around it* :D :D

Date: 2015-03-17 10:29 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] deirdre-c.livejournal.com
Eeeeeee! I LOVE IT!! Every word is sugar-sweet. *happiness*

Date: 2015-03-17 10:34 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] yohkobennington.livejournal.com
This was so lovely ^u^

Date: 2015-03-17 11:35 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] chomaisky.livejournal.com
Oh so sweet!

Date: 2015-03-17 11:44 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] cleflink.livejournal.com
Lovely! I really liked the pacing, especially for how inevitable it was when they finally took their lifelong friendship to the next step. Also neat to see a story where they don't decide to go to school in the same place and all it is does is make the connection more important for both of them.

Date: 2015-03-18 12:31 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] vyperdd.livejournal.com
Beautifully sweet.

Date: 2015-03-18 01:58 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] sienata.livejournal.com
i love lifetime together stories. this one was short but so very sweet. perfect! :)

Date: 2015-03-18 02:11 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] zubeneschamali.livejournal.com
This was bee-yoo-ti-ful. Love the astronomy theme, and how determined and confident Jared must have been to make his way to Jensen after graduation.

Date: 2015-03-18 02:34 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] troll-la-la.livejournal.com
This was just adorable. Geeky science boys watching the stars and falling in love, how can it be better than that?

Date: 2015-03-18 02:52 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ivory-angel99.livejournal.com
Love the peek you gave us into Jensen and Jared growing up together, and then the ache you made us feel when their age differences and therefore separate educations forced them apart. The connection the stars and constellations gave them throughout the years was beautiful as well, and stayed true through to the ending. Those two are just meant to be.

Really amazing writing :)

Date: 2015-03-18 03:36 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] galwithglasses.livejournal.com
This is just the sweetest thing. The whole bit when Jared comes out is great and the last line is stellar.

Date: 2015-03-18 04:28 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] marciaelena.livejournal.com
So lovely. There's a natural feel to this, a beautiful sense of serene inevitability. No hurry to get there because in a way they've always been there.

Date: 2015-03-18 05:38 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] zara-zee.livejournal.com
Gorgeous. Just really sweet and adorable and yep, gorgeous. :)

Date: 2015-03-18 06:11 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] hybridshade.livejournal.com
So sweet I've got cavities the size of craters! Zing! But seriously, this was so lovely in all the right ways. These building snippets of backstory, a touch or two of humour, just the right amount of pining, and the most adorable payoff. So much to love about this! <3

Date: 2015-03-18 06:52 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] skeletncloset.livejournal.com
Their first kiss happens right there against the wall, soft and slow, speaking of years of their friendship and the yearning while they were apart. The hand Jared keeps on the back of Jensen's head guides him into the best angle for their tongues to slide together, and that's far hotter than Jensen would have thought.

I adored this line. Their first kiss. And I'm not one for romance, but this was cathartic.

Date: 2015-03-18 08:39 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] peepingdru.livejournal.com
awesomely awesome....<<<<333333

Date: 2015-03-18 10:36 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] blackrabbit42.livejournal.com
So wonderful. Really, they could have been into anything and the story still would have worked, but the stars... just fits so perfectly. Thanks for writing this little gem.

Date: 2015-03-18 12:50 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] madebyme-x.livejournal.com
What a beautiful and sweet fic! I loved the pacing, and how we saw their relationship develop throughout the years.

And I adored the running motif of stars and stargazing, and how that has shaped their lives together. A gorgeous slice of life fic :)

Date: 2015-03-18 09:56 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] tipsy-kitty.livejournal.com
This was beautiful!

Date: 2015-03-19 05:12 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] cydsa.livejournal.com
lovely progression. lyrical

Date: 2015-03-19 08:40 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] sophiap.livejournal.com
This is utterly sweet and adorable, and I love the easy dynamic between them. Wonderful stuff!

Date: 2015-03-19 10:06 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] kazluvsbooks.livejournal.com
GORGEOUS!!!! //beams happily//

Date: 2015-03-20 07:14 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] theymp.livejournal.com
Sweet story, I liked how you showed the progression of their relationship over time and how you drew it all together with the stars theme.

Date: 2015-03-20 07:42 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] stripytights.livejournal.com
Deliciously cute and sweet, I was hoping and wanting them to get together, and the moment they did was perfect, so very wanted.

Date: 2015-03-21 09:06 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] riyku.livejournal.com
A slow building relationship is pretty much my very favorite thing, and this is so so perfect, the way they have to separate, but still clearly occupy such a huge place in each other's heads and hearts. Wonderful!

Date: 2015-03-21 03:01 pm (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] big-heart-june.livejournal.com
let me looooove all over you, my lovely mystery author! i could just weep with happiness this is that fucking beautiful ♥♥

Date: 2015-03-21 04:31 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] somersault-j.livejournal.com
I loved the leaps through their history!! AND OF COURSE THEY WOULD END UP TOGETHER!! Meant to be. Loved the image of them lying in the bed of the truck, watching stars! And constellations on Jensen's ass ROFL so damn cute :) Loved it!

Date: 2015-03-21 08:30 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] equally-dour.livejournal.com
That was so very sweet!

Date: 2015-03-21 10:09 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] skeletncloset.livejournal.com
The whole astronomy thing? Totally inspired. And Jared finding constellations in Jensen's freckles? Perfect. Totally awesome story.

Date: 2015-03-23 07:48 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] fiercelynormal.livejournal.com
Oh, god, I love this. I have this thing for the boys growing up friends and then more. And this:

"Yeah. They're like little constellations on your skin." He kisses Jensen's shoulder, then lifts the back of Jensen's boxers. "Oh, look, there's Ursa Major right there on your ass."

Loved it <33

Date: 2015-03-25 05:16 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] mdfawn.livejournal.com
T H U D

That was AWESOME!!!!

Date: 2015-03-27 12:13 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] frogmanlj.livejournal.com
Beautiful. Love geeky Js. Very romantic and sweet with all the star gazing.

Date: 2015-03-30 05:46 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] casey28.livejournal.com
Aww, so lovely.

Date: 2015-03-30 08:04 am (UTC)
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From: [identity profile] viviansface.livejournal.com
This was just so gorgeous. I read it around 4 in the morning when I couldn't sleep ans your beautiful words actually made me cry. Literally loved every single detail, ah. <3

Date: 2015-03-30 02:21 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] dugindeep.livejournal.com
So sweet and gorgeous!

Date: 2015-04-02 08:13 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] emmatheslayer.livejournal.com
This is so wonderful and romantic and sweet wow

Date: 2015-12-24 04:43 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] enablelove.livejournal.com
Oh honey, this was incredible!

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